My Thoughts.

Dil e nadaan

2011-09-04T02:56:00.000-07:00

Tum kuch kaho ya khamosh raho,tumhara dil kuch nahin chupa sakta hain,Tumhare shabdon mein bhi jo chupa hain,woh mera dil samjh sakta hain,Kya yeh tumhara hi dil hain ya mera hainKyunki yeh sunta samjhta wohi hain,jo yeh samjhna chahta hain

कुछ उन्सुल्झी बातें

2011-08-19T11:49:00.001-07:00

ना तुम हमें याद करते हो
ना तुम हमे भूल पाते हो
ना हमारे करीब आते हो
ना हमें दूर जाने देते हो
ना तुम हमारे संग रह सकते हो
ना हमारे बिन रहने की समता रखते हो
प्यार तो करते नहीं फिर भी क्यूँ इतना सताते हो

Tum Bin :)

2011-08-19T11:47:00.000-07:00

Aksar lagta hain ki tujhme mujhe "woh" mil gaya jiska intezaar tha
Par kabhi tum zara bhi waise nahin lagte
Kabhi to tum meri khamoshi bhi padh lete ho,
lekin kisi pal me to meri baatein bhi tumhari samjh se bahar hoti hain
Aati hain jab hichki to naam humesha tumhara hi aata hain
Fir chahe yaad koi aur kae lekin yeh kambhakt dil leta hi tumhara naam hain
Jaanti hun tum mujhse meelon door ho ,lekin dil se bahut kareeb ho
Phir na jaane kyun har chehra hubahu tumsa lagta hain :)

Detachment

2011-08-19T11:42:00.000-07:00

After being together for endless days
here we part to our own ways
It all happened one not so fine day
How I forget the date-Fourth of May
But before we unhold each others' hands
Let me get hold of from Potter's wand
to recreate the sudden so lost love
which was so beautiful as a dove
How you forget "The Walk to Remember"
on the roads of DU along with our song-Love in December
Tea-holic you converted me to love that hazelnut coffee
I broke your introvertism to gossiper in that lobby
Despite being a non-swimmer,but in your eyes I could always dive,
Both of us being two left foot,still managed to Jive
Those were our love filled days
Hope to be back is there though just a ray

Can I love you?

2010-09-02T13:17:00.000-07:00

Can I think of you, if you don't mind getting hiccups?
Can I sing for you, if you don't mind lying for my not sweet voice?
Can I dive in your eyes ,if you know swimming?(though I won't like coming out)
Can I keep mum ,if you don't mind reading my eyes?
Can I hold your hands,if you don't mind my being in heaven?
Can I be myself,if you don't my sillyness?
Can my thoughts come to you,if you are afraid of being haunted?
Can I live for you,if you don't mind my love for you?
Can I smile for you,if you love that sight?
Can I rest my head upon your shoulders,if you don't mind getting tired?
Can I keep writing poems,if they don't bore you?
Can I love you,if don't mind getting infected with it?
Can I expect from you not to neglect my feelings,even if you don't love me?

PS-all this is a result of excessive listening of romantic music..Any resemblance found is co-incidental.Do comment if you like this from a silly heart :D
PPS-rains encouraged me to jot this one :D

मैंने प्यार किया :)

2010-02-21T23:50:00.000-08:00

हम तुमसे प्यार करते हैं,पर दुनिया से डरते हैं,
कोई तुम्हारी पहचान मांगें तो झूठ कहते हैं
जानते हैं तुम नहीं चाहते हमें,फिर भी इन्तेजार करते हैं,
एक दिन ना जाने हुआ क्या,जो तुमने कहा की हम तुम्हे पसंद हैं
तुम्हारे लब्जों ने मुझे सातें जन्नत में पंहुचा दिया
फिर देखी मैंने अपनी दुनिया जिसमे सिर्फ मैं और मेरा पिया
पर शायद खुदा को हमारा मंजूर नहीं था,जो तुमने कहा की मैं नहीं हूँ तुम्हारी जिया
कहाँ आसमान में ले जाकर जमीन पर पटक दिया
शायद मुझसे कोई भूल हुई या क्या बात हुई,तुमने कभी नहीं उत्तर दिया
माथा अपना मारा मैंने क्यूंकि तुम्हारी पसंद को तुम्हारा प्यार समझ लिया
आँखों के सागर में डूबे हमने सोचा की पहले क्यूँ नहीं दिमाग इस्तेमाल किया
पर दिल ने एक ही जवाब दिया मैंने प्यार किया,सिर्फ और सिर्फ प्यार किया

Because you love me

2010-02-21T22:33:00.000-08:00

Disclaimer-This post has no connection with my present life.This is totally my heart's and mind's work :)

I like the moments spent with you,because you love me and I like the fact that I am loved by someone and becuase of your love,I love thyself.

I love my hair only when the wind blew them;while I am riding with you on your bike and you secretly look that from the mirror
I love my lips when they try eatting up a single strand of my hair and only you notice that
I love my mouth when it always spit out something while eating and you pat on head and say be careful girl
I love my eyes,because of their restlessness while you dive into them without any life jacket
I love my feet,they allow me to walk endlessly with you
I love my fingers,when then type so quickly to reply to your messages telling me I am pretty etc
I love my ears through which I hear you calling me by my pet name.
I love my smile which forces you to keep me smiling and forget my sorrows
I love my arms as they open up easily while you give me a hug
I love my life for blessing me with a friend like you :)

Yeh Dooriyaan

2010-01-02T05:37:00.000-08:00

Hum to akele hi khush they,par tum mil gaye to laga jannat mil gayi
Tumhari har ada ne dil ko choo lia,par shayad main nahin samjh paayi
Jab tumhare kareeb aana chaha,tab tum nahin samjh paaye,
Humne fir bhi koshish ki,lekin fir bhi tum anjaan rahe gaye.
Khud ko samjha dia maine ki shayad woh shaqs tum nahin,lekin fir bhi tum nahin ruke...

Change

2009-10-30T07:07:00.000-07:00

Had some questions and thoughts while I was feeling low,so here I pen down those here.

We do resist change ,isn't it?But when I want to bring some change,it doesn't stays too long.

Why am I too good (my perception),can't I become the opposite?
Why am I like the way others like me?
When we can have plastic surgery for complete make over,what is needed for the nature make over?
Can't a good human being become devil though the opposite is possible?
Can't I fake myself-my smile ,my eyes which gives the right picture of my mood ?
Can't I expect you to become like I want you to be?
Why do I fulfill your expectations,without any complaint?
Why do I really care for you too much,just to be hurted later?
Why do you leave me alone when I need you the most?Did I ever I left you isolated?
Why do I compromise most of the times?
Why isn't there a complaint box which could quench the thirst of my questions?
Why I can't hate you even ?
Why do I forget and forgive you for your sins that hurted me?
Why do I have to be faced by troubled waters too much?
Why are you harsh to me?
Why can't you be a rosy picture for me?
Why I am a good human being?

All these questions are addressed to my life/my Lord.I know I won't get any answer from Him but his Angels might help me out by the way they want to get in touch with me.

Just Another Encounter

2009-10-20T11:01:00.000-07:00

After a long vacation,I am missing the late morning sleeps :(and the cold weather made it worse.As usual I boarded bus and was by myself.Then I saw another girl,who was really charming.I gave her a meek smile to acknowledge her beauty to her.In return she showed me the similar curve on her lips.

To entertain myself,I plugged the ear phones and tune in to soft and smoothing music.Along with that I was looking out of the window but something turned my eyes towards that girl again.She was placing her hair behind her ears but I guess the wind didn't like that and again blew her hair.Her naturally silky hair add grace to her angelic face.I admire her beautiful hair which could not defend the power of the wind power.Her eyes were another captivating thing apart from her hair.I caught of the moment she was making some funny faces and expressing happiness.It was an co-incident that she was too going the same place.I relished her beauty till she was with me.

Alas!It was my friend's call and mobile was no longer in my hands.So she disappeared till I got time to see my reflection.
PS-edited last part of it.

Some thoughts

2009-10-18T12:57:00.000-07:00

Some thoughts have long life..Isn't?I hope you understand me.This is one thought which was born when I realized that everything is temporary that includes materialistic possessions ,and relationships.

I have been very possessive of some people ,better not to name them.What would they think if they came to know of this?Would they like it or they won't?What you say?This possessiveness don't hold that normal degree,it can go extreme.
I am not a gizmo freak but yeah I love my mobile,specially when it is bought by my savings :)This is the most guarded asset of mine or rather the only.

Sounds odd that we all have same possessiveness though the degree may be nil to the extreme.Anyways,a little gesture moved me.When I came to know a girl who was upset just for losing her calculator.This was stolen by someone from car while she was attending tuition.Now she is extra careful about her things like holding mobile very tightly and suspecting all strangers.

I understood that whatever one is possessive about,is the thing he/she loses.I used to so much protective of things that even if I don't use them,I wouldn't let it go.

But when one day,there was a little dispute with my sister,on taking the exclusive dress.I was carried away when she gave up that dress for me.But then I convinced her that she should take it anyways.From this day,I relished the Joy of Giving.Although this was just a little gesture but it really changed my thoughts.

Even in case of relationships,I have withdrawn this possessiveness.I don't fear losing even my best friend or some one special.That don't mean I don't care for them.It means that if after some efforts,I am unable to match the expectations or the other person don't like me;I would rather take a move out.I know its easy to write and say but actually implementing is really tough.But I would do the same if any one has issues with me.I really don't like faking up or unnecessarily holding something what's not mine.

Serious thoughts..Isn't?By the way,do you have issues with me?Let me know.
Lessons learnt-
1)forget and forgive.
2)Leave expectations.just chuck them.
3)Stop faking.

My Te@Rs

2009-07-05T15:58:00.000-07:00

The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
Its the worst look I wear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the future,I fear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It means some one closed to me is not near
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the pains of the past I bear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the true happiness of true love,I swear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the picture of someone so dear.

Ideal V-Day

2009-02-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

Before you read the poem,I would like to wish you happy valentine week to all..This poem i wrote during my teenage years and I know its filmy type because its imaginative...Hope I am able to keep your love spirit high:)

Another sunny morning and its Valentine Day,

I have just got an invitation in my way.

Its an invite for date from anonymous guy

I kept wondering who sent it and why

While driving to my college,I thought about it very much

That's who could be fooling me by inviting me for such heavenly affair that costs too much bucks.

On a signal stop,I took out my pocket mirror to check if I am looking good

Then came a motorist & showered flowers on my car and drove away so fast as he could

I thought its some well planned prank and joke

planned by my friends & folks.

All of a sudden I heard heavy loud noise & relished a helicopter is above me at a height

As I came out of my car,it rained flowers red and white.

After this someone screamed "Shruti!I love you"

I shivered & mumbled who are you.

Again I heard him say "please meet me in evening"

I thought to teach him a judo lesson in the meeting

Though I am romantic at heart but I don't like this publicity.

I would give him a punch & a lecture as I am witty.

Dumbfounded by this event,I reached my B school

And shared this with my buddies who called me lucky and cool

While readying for this hyped date I wore black top and floral skirt

& got ready to see who is he-genuine or just a rich spoil brat

On my way to the venue ,I kept wondering who is he.

Is he smart,intelligent and as I want my Mr.Right to be.

On reaching I was seated on one place & was requested to be seated on one place & wait

Impatiently i crossed my fingers & kept expecting my fate.

Then arrived a huge bouquet & my wait came to end.

And I was swept off my feet to see it was X(my best friend)

First he greeted me & then sat on his knees to propose me

I never imagined he loves me,as he been special friend to me.

Holding my hand while on his knees,he asked me "would you be mine"

Blushingly I said yes & he asked champagne or wine.

I was still overwhelmed that he is my Mr.Right

as he was looking stunning in suit of white

He asked me if he really like my Mr.Right

I smiled and whispered yes of course you are right..

Just Another day

2009-02-04T09:47:00.000-08:00

Most of my day travel is done via Delhi metro.Sometimes I am in hurry,sometimes I have idle time with me,yet I prefer metro to any other mode of public transport while commuting locally.You would catch me with ears engulfed withe headphones and that too mostly with soft music.

Wait!!!before proceeding,let me ask you one thing ....Are you getting bored already??Did I said I write to please you or to woo you...Don't go by its looks,use your brain.lastly don't expect anything from me :)

If you have seen Delhi metro,you must be aware that it has doors on opposite sides as well out of which one opens at each station.I always try to stand near the door (anyone) and look out for scenery out.If the train is moving and I look in it backward direction,then I am reminded of memories..May be you can say that life is about moving ahead and nothing is permanent.Everything is temporary in life...We shouldn't carry any regret or failure for a longer period of time..Failure is when you didn't tried,so its better to fail and rise rather than letting it untried....

And if I am facing the direction where the metro is moving,then I think I am moving ahead.And life have some opportunities to shine upon..Always be happy and keep smiling.....

That's what i have to say in this post.....Take care

A day of Jan 2009

2009-01-16T12:50:00.000-08:00

After two days of recovery ,I was back to college and then again to catch some sleep..Yeah thank you mam you have sweet voice that sounds as a lullaby..Was teaching us Water cycle and all those topics(blame it on syllabus,we have got Environmental Science

as a subject)

Am I boring you as well?Sorry you are reading at your risk.I amn't responsible for any inconvenience caused:p

Well I was waiting for the classes to be over and I leave for IMS GD/PI classes.My classmate backed out in the end minute.I felt bad but not really.After all,I got "Me Time".

I was also supposed to meet my friend post class..And he too cancelled the program(I know you would read this,but I won't mention your name here)

I bought some chocolates and mints for my company...Hmmm..When a chocolate melts in your mouth,a heavenly moment:)

I boarded the metro and seated myself..Firstly few moments I thought about my friends who left me alone.I talked to another friend to feel good.Thank you sweet friend....

Then I utilized MP3 facility of Express Music phone....I wasn't able to decide which kinda music shall I listen then..When i am unsure i play some songs randomly for a while and not the whole song..Let me show you some songs and the reaction to it-

a)Masakali(from Delhi 6) -being a new song,it caught my attention at present.I was bit trying to dance like Abhy follows Sonam's steps while she is dancing:sigh:

b)Yeh tumhari meri baatein-hmm..reminded me of my past when we used to talk a lot and it wouldn't end somehow..But....

c)Tinka Tinka-ahaan..I was like flying my arms and feel like I am a fairy..Of course I am 1.

d)Soldier-My man has to be strong enough to be my soldier..Need I explain anymore..Please don't tell me I need a bodyguard..I don't bodyguard:neutral:

e)Ni Nachle-a Punjabi track which makes me go foot tapping any time..Yeah I was tapping my boots(heels one not pencils heels though)

f)My heart is beating-Of course for someone special:)Am waiting

g)Mera Laung Gawacha-am Punjabi kudi if you not aware:p I was like tapping my nose a bit while listening this one...

h)Kaise mujhe(from Ghajini)-again reminded of the pain and I go numb to it..I thought of him and missed those moments..Then I spotted a cute guy in front of me and I forgot everything..Lols...Its not easy to de-learn something...

i)Kabhi Kabhi Aditi-this makes me feel special as if someone is trying to cheer me up and I smile up easily....

j)Desi girl-started foot tapping again....My boots are enough to kill anyone:p

k)Jag Soona Laage-yeah mere jag me tanhaayi hai ..but I am happy:p

l)Yehi Hota Pyaar-I wish you could understand my love for you but you can't...And I ain't any Akshaye Kumar to wait for too long for you..

I guess I didn't bored you with this stuff..At last I got out of metro and finished my chocolate bar...I never share that and luckily didn't had anyone to snatch that from me..Anyways that brownie caught my attention.. I got that warmed and added chocolate sauce..Another heavenly dessert ....I was sinfully happy....

I roamed in the markets near my class premise and then attended the class..It was really nice day ..I made some new friends and we had some fun moments while practising GDs..Never thought GDs are so much fun:p

Anyways that's all what I wanted to say about this day..Thanks to my idiot friends to cancel their programmes(smirk)..Thank You God .....

Thank you readers for reading this..

2008-11-12T12:18:00.000-08:00

DISCLAIMER-

1.Read at your own risk.

2.There is nothing for you to enjoy in this blog.

3.I don't wish to answer your queries regarding my post.

4.I don't expect anything

My eyes are wet yet tearless because my tears are defying the gravity.Lips are neither smiling nor frown.Face is too numb to react.Neither I like your company nor mine.I let the wind touch my hair and kiss my face.

I really don't know where i lost my smile.But this seems difficult time for the time being and people around me.When I used to inspire others to smile and I have lost this asset.

The problem is how to recover my smile,a curve that used to set up everything alright.It gives me strange blues.

This is not what I wish to blog but there is something that is unsaid and probably it can't be expressed in words.

2008-10-29T00:56:00.000-07:00

Holding lit up candle and the wind blowing,you need to envelope the candle with your hands.This is a common sight on Diwali:)
But what thought comes to your mind while lighting the candle?Don't you wish that wind shouldn't be able blow it.
I too thought the same.Then I realised that my goals and my dreams are like this candle.
There are so many obstacles that you always need to protect them.One should live up one's dreams.You have to provide good care of them.Provide good cover to them.
Your dreams need not get assent from others.Your dreams are your children.You have to be parent your dreams and goals.
Now see,is there any difference between goals and dreams.
Dreams are your destination where you want to be and goal is the mode of transport to reach thee destination.
Stand up and keep your the light of your dream burning till you achieve it finally:)
I hope all this is not something we know but always tend to forget it and we don't give it the care needed.
God Bless !!!!!

2008-10-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

There is a girl who always used to live in her world and she might be the same if she hadn't met that person...
She likes to keep her life an open book but she never follows anyone. She believes in herself and always follows her heart and not anyone else. She may take advice from her friends but she always does what she feels like doing even if that is wrong. At least then she won't have to blame anyone for anything. I admire this about her but I think she should follow more of her mind than heart.She is an angel who spreads love and happiness everywhere she goes.She has changed the life of her friends by caring for them a lot. She has a sunshine and a very sweet smile that melts the heart of onlookers. She has the real meaning of love to people around her. But when love knocked at her door, she didn't unlock her heart. I really wish her to be happy always with the one who loves her the most.

Then one day a stranger entered in her life through her blog.A complete stranger .But for him a post was enough to know her. Wonder how he managed to break the door and touch her heart. I swear its very difficult to please her.Well he is procrastinator by name and that too an ultimate one. But with that girl in his life,his tag is fading. I don't know whether if he is happy with this or not. But this is good for him. He never delays anything concerning her and is her real well wisher .He is the bravo but you know her. She won't open the door so easily.That's her condition. He is so caring that he never lets her waste single second and is ready to sacrifice for her career and life but he can't think of losing her at all.I must say, he is a real gentleman.Isn't it?I thought real gentleman and heroes existed on screen only.
I don't know what to say more but what you suggest should happen next.What you suggest??

Strange Relationship

2008-10-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

Face glowing because of the choco facial therapy done.Nails neatly filed and painted.Eyebrows finely shaped.Hair being colored and styled.All this and more part of bridal preparations?No,its not necessary.Some indulge in these practices just to pamper oneself or maybe to please their partners.Well,I too indulged in those practices.Now you please stop wondering the reason behind it.

Well,I have observed a strange thing during these activities.There is some relationship between the length of hair and your sweetheart.Am I hearing words like idiot or stupid for myself?Please let me explain this first.As long as girls are in love/relationship,they don't mind pains of keeping long hair(if they have long hair).Mostly all guys love long hair of their girlfriends and they never allow to get hair being even trimmed.But if they broke up or are on the verge of break up,girls always firstly get the make over done by getting hair shorter.The most common excuse is that difficulty of maintaining the long hair.Girls do that intentionally to hurt the guys.Now before the break up,wasn't that difficult to maintain the long length of hair.Now you won't call me crazy na...
By the way,I am planning for getting my hair shorter too.

P.S.-There is no prize in guessing my relationship status.Prospective guys can file their nominations(lols).Just kidding...I am silly girl,don't remind me that.Take care!!!

Where To Look For Happiness?

2008-08-29T08:46:00.000-07:00

What is happiness?Where to look for it??Is it situational or always present and you need to realise it?A few words about happiness-
"Well,my thought is that its a state of mind that decides in what mood we.are.What thought we feed to our mind,its reflect our mood accordingly.
Find a quiet place and listen. It should be very quiet. The only sound you should hear is your heart beating. Listen. Peer deep down inside your heart. Do you see someone that holds a special place in your heart? Maybe they have always been there when you needed them; maybe they offered words of encouragement; taught you a lesson; comforted you when you were sick; praised you on your accomplishments. Make this their lucky day.You have the POWER to spread happiness. A quick note or a kind word is all it takes to bring a smile and lasting memory to someone very special."

"Happiness is not in our circumstances but in ourselves. It is not something we see, like a rainbow, or feel, like the heat of a fire. Happiness is something we are."
To realise it,I have enlisted few steps for to feel happiness:-

Look for your mom.Lay your head in her lap and feel her pat on your head.This would definitely give you heavenly pleasure.I always forget my anxieties and tensions.....I feel sense of contentment and pure happiness.
Where ever you are,scan your faces around you.I amn't kidding.Some people can really read your faces and there are times ,when strangers gesture you to smile (when you are sad)
Try getting a brownie.Warm it and add sinful quantity of chocolate sauce over it.Sinful way to melt your heart.Please don't over indulge in it....
Go for massage or spa therapy for an relaxing and soothing experience.
Pen down some of your childhood memories and see smile lightens up your face.
If possible,own a pet and spend sometime daily by talking to it.Believe me ,they do understand us very well.I love puppies and fish..
Get some "I-Time" .Lie down with no thoughts going on in mind ...Try not to move at all.Its good if catch some sleep in this mode...
Switch off your mobile(Self explanatory)
Get in touch with your old friend.
Indulge in retail therapy(window shopping would do as well)...
Experiment cooking a new dish or a dessert.Spread smiles...
Blog or try your hand at poetry.Its not that difficult.
Participate in your hobby(mine is dancing anytime)
Do baby sitting or play with toddlers.
Floral therapy-Decorate your home with flowers or let them adorn your hair.

My First Adventure

2008-07-31T04:14:00.000-07:00

Though I am not adventurous ,but when I got the opportunity for it,I grabbed it with my both hands.Lats year when I was on vacation with my family,I was given choices between boat ride and snorkeling to have the glimpse of correls.

Earlier,I was scary about going under the water and be spotted around the fish.How will I distinguish friendly fish among non friendly?Then I thought that it was first opportunity for me to go risky and adventurous.I was waiting for my chance then.I was looking at other fellows who were going and coming.The sight of their safe coming,gave me a relief.

Till then i was collecting some sea shells.The variety of shapes and colors in sea shells always attract me to carry some with me.But I fell bad that creature under it,will become homeless because of me.How can be I so so cruel and rude to any living being?I put them back in the water again.

At last!!!My turn came.When I viewed the huge body of water ;I wondered how deep I will go and will I go and touch the point where the river meets the sea.Silly me!!I think a lot and then curiosity is good thing too.

Anyways we(3fellow passengers,my dad and me) stood together and bonded by a common water tube that held us above water.My face was covered with oxygen mask and eye goggles.Then we started walking ahead.I was shocked when I was realising that I am no longer able to stand properly.Perhaps i was going deeper.It was like as if I have slipped the stairs and still gravitational force pulling me inside.Breathing through those pipes was very tough for me.I wanted to go back but if I would have asked for going back then others could not continue either.
But then my guide told me to float on the water.I got mad and was thinking is he crazy that am I light as a feather to float?As I tried moving my legs backward towards up,I felt like a mermaid.

Next task was to dive under the water and look for corals.The visibility was poor due to accumulation of rain water in the sea.Still I manged to go bit deep and have a look.The guide brought a corral for us to see.I was happy to see it and it gave me a sense of accomplishment that as if I had been to Great correl reef of Australia.

Coming back to the sea shore was easier as I got comfortable in floating back.I had done it.I am thrilled and excited to see new side of my life.This being my first adventurous activity will be remembered as fresh as ever.I am proud of myself.I am looking for more adventurous.

W@Y Of LiFe

2008-07-24T10:15:00.000-07:00

Life is not always as you want it to be.Sometimes,it is better or it may be be worse.That's
what we call A Way Of Life.

When you love someone and your love is not always reciprocated.That's a way of life.
When you are not expecting something,life drops some surprises.Some are sweet while other are terrifying.That's a way of life.
When you are hurted ,you fell you are being wrongly punished for not doing anything wrong.But that serves as a lesson to grow up stronger through pains.That's a way of life.
When you forgive someone for hurting you.Its doesn't matter to everyone but that person still pelts stone at you. That's a way of life.
When you lose your selfishness to become selfless;It again becomes difficult to become selfish again.That's a way of life yet so true.
When you are sad,nobody notices you.That's a way of life.
When you want that no one see you for instance at a date;then someone catch you red handed. That's a way of life.
When you are its too dark and lonely,suddenly your mobile lighten up either with a message or a call from our dear or near ones that you are not alone.That's a way of life.
When you dress up to look ordinary and you become the cynosure of all eyes.then you need a mirror to accept your beauty and your goodness. That's a way of life.
To the world you are one living creature but to one person you might mean the whole world.That's a way of life.
When you think you are getting upset,just tune in some music and start dancing to its tune.That's a way of life to de stress yourself.
When it comes to relationships,never expect anything but always fulfill every expectation of the other person.That's a way of life yet so true.

Friendship Versus Love

2008-07-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,I really wonder if there is some difference between the two.I believe strongly in friendship but about love,I amn't sure whether it exists or not.

As per my life experience,in place of love-infatuation,crushes and attraction that occurs.What is love??According to Erich Sehgal "Love is never having to say you are sorry"(Love Story)
So many people believe in love and say that pairs are made in heaven.So how can Know who is made for me?can I go to heaven and check my partner.No na.Then How can I believe in such things?Its not that I am against love.The matter of fact is that I await to experience it.I know I am asking for true love.I know thats quite difficult thing.I would rather say
"True love is like ghost heard by all but seen by few."
But still,I want to that few spieces that I want to go for difficult things.I think I will get it because of my positive attitude.

But still there is so much confusions between friendship.I think love exist in friendship too.I have so many friends who are like my jewelery who adorn my life.i care for them so much that I don't need to determine my care for them.Isn't that love??Love exist in friendship too.Never ending love and care.Can't we say that is love and it is spread so widely.

Love isn't confined to your partner or spouse.But it is everywhere.It lies in every relation but its intensity is different.Its depend on how deeply attached you are to the person.I love some friends whom I just adore a lot.The geographical distance might be too much but they the distance between our hearts is nil.Even if I amn't in touch with them,they never feel that they are forgotten and not even me think I am lonely and forgotten.

About the other love,I am still waiting for the right person at the right time and the right place.For the time moment,I have my hands full with my priorities of my life.But the search begins.....

My Beauty Charm

2008-07-14T10:48:00.000-07:00

When I see my self in mirror,I can some face Looking at me.Sometimes,I see innocence.Sometimes,I see innocence..Perhaps,I have beautiful hair.Or my eyes are quite deep.Am I really beautiful?Or am I in love?But there is no soul that can connect me in my heart.No one has wooed me yet.Then what is it?I don't know where to search for the answer.Do I really need love in my life?I need to figure out what makes me feel beautiful.Another question,how to do know this??

That day,I was traveling in a three wheeler on a rainy day.Rain is enough reason for me to smile.Drops chatter and patter.I put my hand out to catch some drops.The look like a pearl to me.
Anyways,the rear mirror caught my eyes.I was left wondering at my own sight.I was thinking who is this new girl in my face.Why I am looking different?What have I done to look different?The innocence at my face and have its own beauty to depict.Beauty is a weapon and Smile is its sword.So whats making my face prettier than before.I was just removing some dirt from my ear.This hided my pearl earring for a while.I didn't like my face without it.

Ahaan,its my pearl top that's making me look good.Because its white and goes well along my fair face.Its simply beautifying my look.I love it.Now I realised that pearl is my beauty charm if not lucky charm.

2008-07-10T05:35:00.000-07:00

I have this habit of reading my horoscope in my newspaper.It happened a day when my telecast read that I was required to be to kind and polite to strangers.Wow.Am I meet my prince dearest today??How would I recognize him?Where would i meet him??Would he approach me first or I will have to approach?"Jaane woh kaisa hoga re??"Will I have to wait for me him at metro station??Or he would he lend me his hand while me chasing metro ala DDLJ style??I was daydreaming and my mom pulled me by arm and scolded me sapne dekhna band kar aur zamin pe aaja.I was like shocked haven't I been in a metro with my prince???

15:30
After my lunch,I got ready for my classes.I was at my best(blush).I brushed my hair open and walked out.
15:45
I was listening "kahin to hogi vo" and imagined someone singing it for me.I smiled and when I was smiling,some people around me returned smile.I was scared itne buddhe log mujhe kyun smiling??I am waiting for some one else.Huh.I ran away from that place and reached the station to catch the train.
16:01
I was looking all the guys if I like anyone from them(sigh).Koi pasand nahin aaya usme se.I didnt lost hope because the day isnt over yet.

16:03
I board the train to Kashmere Gate.Where to look for him??Do I have to roam around in this congested metro or would reach me himself.

16.07
Earlier,I used to read a book or text all the time in metro.Now I was listening latest tracks and looking here and there.

16:22
I reached Kashmere gate.Will he be following the same route as me??Will he walk to me himself?Will he meet me at exit of metro station??

So many questions with answers known to God.Where will I go?Anyways,I can't waste my time waiting(I hate waiting).I still browse through all the faces.No one comes to claim my prize(according to my scope).I carry on and board the next metro to Rajiv Chowk...I wait some time till I amnt late for my class.I spotted a cute guy with innocence on his face.But then,I amnt in bad luck,his girlfriend is holding his hand(I wish I know some abuses to abuse that girl)

16:54
Now I have to hop on another metro to reach a station.I have a class to attend.Two hours of non stop class.My class lacks that kinda smarty I am looking for.But,There are say around for around 50 guys in institute premises,this World is full of people.

19.07
Atlast class is over,I am to follow same metro to go home.This time,I amn't looking for that stranger(: x).I am reading a novel and humming song that is being played in my ears through my mp3.

Some people come and just peep a bit to read a title of my book or peek a boo in it.I think can they read the whole book by catching few words like they peep in as if looking for a treasure.

I overhear some whispers and laugh on me or my book.I dont understand whats the hell wrong with people.Have I committed a crime if I am reading a romantic novel"Love Story" by Erich Sehgal.

19:47
Nothing significant happened meanwhile.Then another guy came and stood me.I thought he is the one.He was looking at me and me looking at him.I thought would he say something or not??I was flattered by his decent looks.And he got down from the next metro.:(

20:02
I reached the desired station and now I had lost some hope of finding some one.I get down the station.As I was about to board feeder bus,I saw a familiar face.I had to ponder too much to think where have I seen him before?He too was amused by the way I was gazing him and not been able to recognize him.

20:04
A minute passed thinking.Then he approached me and he said "hi shruti".I was dumbfounded that how he know my name.I was still scared to react then,he told me he was my senior in my school.He knew me because he had crush on me.I was to faint now.Someone had crush on me?Anyways,then I was so busy blabbering with him,that I didnt knew how my time passed so fast.

20:24
A call from home.I forgot that I have worrisome parents.I had to leave him in some hurry.I was rushing that he gave me his no. and I couldn't give mine.

I forgot that I finally met a stranger.Thank to that astrologer.Now don't ask who was he or any other personal questions.Read the blog and leave comment please.....

An Unexpected Experiment

2008-07-06T03:21:00.000-07:00

Experiment

Aim-To see how deep my mind can go in short time.Not every dumbo is exactly a dumbo.You never know how smart a person is...:wink:

Instruments Required-A non working or not so intelligent brain.

Process
While listing down my hobbies in a slam book,I wrote reading as one of the hobby.Then I was thinking what exactly I like to read-a novel or management book or self help book or comics or stories(not to mention my course books-that's not a hobby).
Stories ahaaan that reminds me that my life consists of so many stories.Don't be ridiculous.Every relationship is like a story untold to others.Likewise,My relation with each of my friend has a its story.Hey.don't remind me that I have stolen this dialogue from movie "Hum Tum".

Some stories had d starting and happy ending and some started badly.Sadly few stories have ended and some have caught the grip again.Some are really beautiful that I have met my angel in one of them.I have some jewels priceless like pearls who adorn my life.A quote comes to my mind while thinking about relationships.

"Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand.Held loosely,with an open hand and squeeze tightly to hold on,the sand trickles through your fingers.You may hold on some of it,but most of it will be spilled.A relationship is like that.Held loosely ,with respect and freedom for the other person,it is likely to remain intact.But held too possessively & the relationship slips away & is lost."

During my life time till the date ,I have innumerable people who have changed me or influenced my life somewhat.
"Some people come into our lives & quickly go.Some stay for a while & leave footprints on our heart & we are never,ever the same ."

Just like Emperor Akbar's NavRatnas,I too have my Ratnas.Just like Ratnas ,they have distinct names & properties .These are as follows(in alphabetical order,no rankings)-

a)Accenture07(vipul)
First & foremost thing about him is he is an extrovert.He speaks too much but don't talk rubbish.Earlier,I thought he is very boring(hey please,don't kill me for my honesty) and he might had been an Interviewer in his last life.But time proved me wrong.I was supposed to meet him at PG meet but met him later at a Quant workshop.Lols.Even before meeting,we became good friends that he encouraged me to leave my Introvert nature and come out of my shell.Now I talk too much and irritate him(I think he gets irritated but he don't show it) .In short he is a "friend in need is a friend indeed".

b)Diablo(Saahil)
Same case.First impression is the last 1 went wrong.I still laugh when I look back at how he welcomed(ragged)me when I newly joined a public forum.I am happy for him he converted IIM Shillong.When I met him,he seems to be a decent personality with down to earth nature.He cracks jokes but not at someone.Before he left,I came to know him better.He guided me a lot for all cases whether its my blog or cat or even my fights with my friends.Very sweet friend.He understands me well.I too don't know whats that in him which makes me trust him blindly.

c)Egonomist(Wewake)
He came to know me at first instance while chatting on a forum.He associated my personality with "Morose & The Violin"..This phrase has a beautiful and deep meaning behind it..Some intelligent species can understand only.He don't mind my tantrums.hehehe...We share the hobby of reading books.He is regular to updates on my blogs and inspire me a lot to write more.He can make up a good counsellor or psychologist.He is already nominated as A Community leader.I wish to be a leader like him...

d)Haresh mandani
Some people are really philanthropic and friend for life.He is very caring & helpful person I have ever met.Some people don't want to show that they care but they really do.He comes in the category of people who can do anything for anyone.One of the greatest cook I have ever come across yet.Perfect house husband(I know you will kill me now)but I know truth is bitter...hehehe..lol.Selfless and the first philanthropist I have come across.I am running out words yaar...Abhi aur bhi spam karna hai:wink:

e)MumZ(Mamta)
Another case of first impression went wrong & that too because I thought she is proudy and another typical Delhi girl.It was at the end of our classes when we kept in touch and came to know each other well.I realised she likes my company and treats me like her younger sister.She is very matured & determined kinda girl that blackmailing don't melt her at all.One of the intelligent spiece in my world.Don't like my tantrums but still let me win the fights though.She cares a lot for me and knows what I like in type of food or dress .My Best friend.Though I annoy her a lot and she loses temper then but she cools down soon too..

f)Mukul(Hacker & Researcher)
Met him through my parents in Singapore.My father's friend's son.Very talkative and homesick at that time.I was as usual shy and reserved because I never thought that I would be able to keep in touch with him after my trip in Singapore.But then for reasons,my dad gave me his contact details(he was hoping that the communication might be over after the work).Though I was also thinking that it might be over like this but time proved me wrong.As i came to know him,he is very decent guy.He is like my mentor and pampers me a lot.He gave me so many lessons of life that I really don't know how to pay him tribute for the same.

g)Prerna
My Senior.True friend in my college.Now her days are over and college would look empty without her presence.We both are photogenic and love giggling.It was her trust in me that made me bonded with her well.A go-getter.Scolds me when I even shed a tear.Another thing common between us is that we love dancing and are great dancers and big foodies too.I miss dose mo mos that we ate on my birthday.But madam ji mujhe barf ki gola (chuski) nahin khane deti hai.I remember that day @ University fest ,she threw it forcibly from my hands.I will miss you in college.

h)Rahul Khanna(budhu)
One of the lalluest student in the best college of I.P.University.Don't know how he came across my profile on Orkut & why I was an idiot to accept without having any valid reasons for the same.But now I am happy with my mistake.lols.Bacha hai yeh.Ladkiyaan chedta nahi sirf dekhta hai.hehehe..But he is true hearted and genuine person.Blackmailing bahut achi aati hai inko.He gets angry when I even frown and if I do any mischief or shed a tear,he scolds me a lot.Don't forget me,Mr.Khaaana..

i)Rishabh
Met through a mutual friend on Orkut.Friend for friend and enemy for enemy.Quite stylish.Keep on experimenting new hairstyle or wardrobe.Seems to be ATTITUDE guy but He IS NT.He is a night bird(ullu).You can call him or text him anytime on his Hot line no.lols.Deep thinker.Analyses the situation very well before coming to solution.He don't know how to say No to me for anything.Fastest text replier.

"I miss those I have loved who are no longer with me but I find I am grateful to them for having them in my life.The gratitude has finally conquered the loss."

Just imagine I was filling up a slam book and I have reached so far.If I continued like this how much time would take filling a slam book.You(readers) can resume back to your work and I continue mine.Thank you for wasting your idle/precious time here.

Result-
a)Don't think too much while filing a slam book.

b)Preserve time & mind from jumping from one thought to another so fast.

c)Such deep thinking can be good & sometimes it can cost too much time(like here-such a long blog:(

d)Let your friends know what are your thoughts about them.

e)Get their consent before writing about them which I haven't done.

f)Friends have Supreme Importance over boyfriend.:)

Sweet Nothings!!!!

2008-07-04T00:31:00.000-07:00

In my daily life,I introspect somethings small or big.For instance ,if I am on road,I read the registration nos of cars and bikes that I see.So if I see a familiar no.,the I get cautious.I must say girls should be like me.Uff!yeh kya bak bak karne lag ayi main.Main bhi na.Anyways,I wanna share something with ya all.I have this habit of stepping out of home usually late evenings unless there is no class or some work.I walk out and visit mall few meters away from my home or maybe a nearby place(Sorry,can't mention anything about the place)Hey!don't lose temper,I have something interesting to share .But please keep patience.

I see a guy there who too frequents that place at that time.At first sight,he didn't gave me much attention but I liked the innocence of his face and his rascal kinda smile.He and his younger bro(or maybe his twin) look similar that I have to distinguish between mera waala banda and uska bhai..Lols..Then later on,I too stopped giving him attention.Seeing tha I amn't paying any heed to him,he felt bad.Then I saw him regular at the place(was it some coincidence but that too don't occur to frequently or is he vella banda).Oh!my God I wondered what happened to him now.He would come,smile and wait for me to pay him some attention.It continued for a few months that he would just smile to me and say nothing.Then I thought that he comes for some other purpose and not for me.On my later visits,he started following me on his bike when I used to walk back home.I had to think again what the hell he wants from me.I noticed(through his body language) his eagerness to speak to me something.Even his bro or friend who used to accompany him on the bike used to encourage him to speak.This continued for sometime and I thought to tell him"Fattu hai tu.Tere jaisa darpok maine apni life me kabhi nahin dekha."

I dropped his thoughts from my mind then to recycle them.I used to laugh on him for wasting the cost of fuel for running his bike.Because the purpose wasn't yet accomplished.Sometime back,I came across the news that price of petroleum has increased now.Poor guy..But with the increase in price,he stopped following on his bike.I really pity on him...But this haven't discouraged him to come to that place.Again he come and smile at me.When I leave,he don't have the guts to match my steps.Really a poor guy.He needs lessons and training on how to start a conversation with a beautiful girl(like me obviously).Any volunteer for the same.I would wait for the reply.Please write back to me,if you interested in taking his classes.
Keep watching this space for more updates.

By the way I forgot to tell you that he visited the lanes of my home on Holi and by chance I was standing in my terrace.Fir hona kya tha,aaya mushkuraya aur chala gaya.Fatttu kahin ka.....

Do You KNow Why??

2008-07-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

Do you know why I love you?
Because you have made my World so beautiful.
Do you know why I love you?
because you kiss away my blues.
Do you know why I love you?
because you are the rose of my life.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are the breath of my life.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are the heartbeat of my heart.
Do you know why I love you?
Because your hugs are warm enough to keep off winters.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are the world to me and not a person of a world.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are the guiding star of my life.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are God's present to me.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you understand me without listening any sound.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are a ray of hope for me.
Do you know why I love you?
Because I pray for your dreams to be true.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are the one with whom I wanna share my life.
Do you know why I love you?
Because you are my better half.
Do you know why I love you?
Because I wanna know why I love me....

Friends

2008-07-01T05:05:00.000-07:00

This is thing is a small gift to my friends ....I know this is quiet childish 1 but I wrote this three years back..Just to say Thanks to all my friends..Each and everyone who have been a part of my life even though for a short time...Every moment has been full of life for me with you friends....Cheers to all my friends..Here I present a small poem for you..Dont laugh even if you dont like it.

A friend in need is friend indeed,
Friend is a person by whom our wounds are healed,
A friend with whom secrets are shared
& each other's feelings are shared.
Thanks to God's precious gift
of a person who rises our spirits.
A friend is a star who always shine
in the sweet little heart of mine.
Friend is like a jewel,
who adds value to our life.
Life without friend is just like,
a SUN without any warmth & light.

So friends ,I leave this poem to you..I have wish that who all visit my this poem and if you consider me as your buddy,so please leave your footprints for me.I hope you are smart enough to understand what I say.I would love cherish them forever..

p.s.-na samjhane wale ki saral bhasha me kehti hun-comment likh dio..come on cn't I expect this much from you...take care..long live our friendship

Angels-do they exist?

2008-06-29T08:51:00.000-07:00

I have just finished reading "the Valkyries by Paulo Coelho..I must say all self help books aren't same though most of them find these books boring.Anyways I ain't here to discuss this stuff.

After reading it,I asked myself do angels really exist or the author had used some imaginations to create the existence of angels.Whether I need an angel for myself or belief in the presence of God is enough?And if angels exist,how can I see one?Or can I say my special friends as an angel?What is the purpose of angels?

I think really have more than 1 angel.I really don't know whether i can call my friend an angel or not.But why bother on what others would say or think about it.Its my life and I have my own principles.Being a hardcore Aries,I am the leader who follows own principles.Anyways,there is 1 buddy of mine who is entitled to be called as "My Angel" and I cant disclose his/her name here(I am possessive about the angel and cant let it go from my life).

Here goes my journey about the angel.Hmm I guess I can share that I met my friend on public forum that I joined just for curiosity that I came across its website at a Quiz competition.First I talked to him at the forum.Believe me not always the first impression the last one.He wasn't at his decent best when I talked to him always in the mood for stupid jokes on me and leg pulling.I came to know being a fresher always attract ragging.Never mind,I talked to everyone to acknowledge myself with others.Then I started talking to him and realised that he isn't that bad guy.Then I got an opportunity to meet him .He was really a decent guy I have ever came across.He is a sweet guy who knows is quiet courteous and very much decent.He found me sweet too but I guess that's just because of my tag line "sweet".I was also curious to know about what he thinks of me.I just thought him to categorise him in good friend.

No other thought,but is true that if friendship is true,distance doesn't matters.After a single meet,we kept in touch through mobile.He has been selfless person and always there for me.I used to talk to him very late at night or you can very early morning.He never minds my stupid jokes and me talking like an idiot.Sometimes we can say that love exists in friendship too.Love is not always between the lovers(I hate the term boyfriend and girlfriend).This love means caring for your friend endlessly.I have a good circle of friends but I have never been myself with anyone else.But with him,I don't know what clicked me or what attracted me to trust him blindly.Though I have a bitter past behind me,that made me not to trust anyone.Even if I trust someone and get hurt ,I can forgive and forget it.

Anyways ,I dun think I went wrong with the beginning.I got my answer that my angel is with me.Maybe God wanted to send it at the right time and at the right place...(hehehe.public forum---right place).I would pray God to protect my angel and keep him happy always.I wish good luck for future to my angel.Always be there for me otherwise I would pull your ears down.Miss Ya hamesha...

Strange $mile-but definitely a Lovely One

2008-06-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

My smile has an infection to spread,catch it.
My eyes has a word to say,understand them.
My hair has a style to show,see it.
My cheeck has an emotion to express ,feel it.
The beauty of my face has it own language,decode it.
Perhaps,my silence is powerful than my word.

Sometimes even strangers get it more clearly than my loved ones.I know that stranger thing sounds strange but you know what I am a strange blogger too that strange things happen to me in this strange world.

Ahaan...Strange reminds me of strange incidents of my life.One of the incident happened few months back.I was on way to home from the heart of Delhi.At a traffic stop,there was a temple on the side.Being a pride Hindu,I made a religous gesture that is a communication between the Lord and me.I was unaware that I was being watched by someone in a Quallis ahead me.That guy smiled at me.I was confused whether it was to poke a laugh at me or a sign of appreciation.This Question arose and went to recycle bin because I knew that I can't get its absolute answer.I tried to divert my mind to some other thought just like a monkey jump from one tree to another if it is unable to get something from one tree.So mind jumped to another tree of thought but my eyes were on that tree only.Ironically that car was ahead me for a while .First i thought to give that guy a nasty stare but my mood was already gloomy,so i could not do that.Perhaps he understood I amnt fine so he again smiled and gestured to ask why I stopped smiling.His concern for me made me smile as I keep on forgetting that I have an infectious and beautiful smile.This really melted my heart and made me relish the goodness of human nature.I realished I have a beautiful smile and I should not forget smiling.Though it doesnt sound a special thing but to me it meant a lot.A moment of smile washes the thought of sorrows to the recycle bin of mind of my mind.

Another similar sort of incident occurred when I was with my family at a bakery.But I was very upset at that time.Even the sight of chocolates couldnt please me at that time.My parents bought a chocolate mousse despite my big "No" tantrums.I ate it and spat it outand spoke rubbish about it infront of the cashier.He kept his cool and asked to take something else.He could have lost his peace of mind when I misbehaved like this.Instead he animatedly asked me to smile(this moment wasnt foreseen by by anyone except he and me).I was really moved by his gestureand felt some peace.

I thanked God for sending such angelic souls on the Earth to spread smile..Given a chance I would like to thank these persons verbally.But I guess I have done this already though internally.

A HiDDeN GurL

2008-05-23T10:20:00.000-07:00

I have been seeing dis gurl ...wait before u think m dating her,u r wrong(seeing)......
She is quiet different....She is not aware of herself or not interested in exposing herself to the world....She smiles so secretly...No1 have seen her dat smile....She has got twinkle in her eyes....Her hair so beautiful ,silky n smooth.....My hands slip from them when i touch them....She is quiet camera friendly(i mean secretly)...She loves behaving like posing for her snaps(model style) and trying different outfits)...I tried to tell to expose herself to the world ......But she feels so shy...She under estimates herself while considering herself infront of the world...i adviced her she is unique....

There is another thing that she luvs doin all alone....Any guesses????Yupie..Its DanCe....She dances beautifully...She gets into the soul of the music & her dance is completely from her heart...Atlast there is some inspiration that inspires her to dance so well.Shiamak Davar & the new programme Jhoome Jiya Re( Zee Next)...But just make her improve her steps n movement but not her confidence to show her talent to others...I would pray for her to display her skills too....

Another thing what you think who is that gurl??But please before you think that she needs sympathy ,then again you are wrong...She needs empathic mind to understand her well & encourage her to come out of her nest & fly with the extra ordinary wings(talent) gifted to her By the Almighty...By the way that gurl is Me,Myself......I have been seeing myself in my reflection in the mirror...My Mirror..My true self...This relation between me & the mirror is life long & true relation......

2008-03-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

Smile

Beauty is power ,smile is its sword

Smile is a priceless gift by the Mighty Lord

The beauty of a real smile

cant be described in just a mere mile

It accrues joys & happiness for more than a while

The chastity of a smile is much more than beauty of moon

since it blesses us with a divine boon

A smile you wear

brings your dear ones near

Smile is a sign of bliss

which is as sensuous as an innocent kiss

Smile is as rich as fine wine

as it washes away our saturnine

An exquisite smile has a magical effect

that can abrade all kinds of defects.