Change

Had some questions and thoughts while I was feeling low,so here I pen down those here.

We do resist change ,isn't it?But when I want to bring some change,it doesn't stays too long.


Why am I too good (my perception),can't I become the opposite?
Why am I like the way others like me?
When we can have plastic surgery for complete make over,what is needed for the nature make over?
Can't a good human being become devil though the opposite is possible?
Can't I fake myself-my smile ,my eyes which gives the right picture of my mood ?
Can't I expect you to become like I want you to be?
Why do I fulfill your expectations,without any complaint?
Why do I really care for you too much,just to be hurted later?
Why do you leave me alone when I need you the most?Did I ever I left you isolated?
Why do I compromise most of the times?
Why isn't there a complaint box which could quench the thirst of my questions?
Why I can't hate you even ?
Why do I forget and forgive you for your sins that hurted me?
Why do I have to be faced by troubled waters too much?
Why are you harsh to me?
Why can't you be a rosy picture for me?
Why I am a good human being?


All these questions are addressed to my life/my Lord.I know I won't get any answer from Him but his Angels might help me out by the way they want to get in touch with me.

Just Another Encounter

After a long vacation,I am missing the late morning sleeps :(and the cold weather made it worse.As usual I boarded bus and was by myself.Then I saw another girl,who was really charming.I gave her a meek smile to acknowledge her beauty to her.In return she showed me the similar curve on her lips.

To entertain myself,I plugged the ear phones and tune in to soft and smoothing music.Along with that I was looking out of the window but something turned my eyes towards that girl again.She was placing her hair behind her ears but I guess the wind didn't like that and again blew her hair.Her naturally silky hair add grace to her angelic face.I admire her beautiful hair which could not defend the power of the wind power.Her eyes were another captivating thing apart from her hair.I caught of the moment she was making some funny faces and expressing happiness.It was an co-incident that she was too going the same place.I relished her beauty till she was with me.

Alas!It was my friend's call and mobile was no longer in my hands.So she disappeared till I got time to see my reflection.
PS-edited last part of it.

Some thoughts

Some thoughts have long life..Isn't?I hope you understand me.This is one thought which was born when I realized that everything is temporary that includes materialistic possessions ,and relationships.

I have been very possessive of some people ,better not to name them.What would they think if they came to know of this?Would they like it or they won't?What you say?This possessiveness don't hold that normal degree,it can go extreme.
I am not a gizmo freak but yeah I love my mobile,specially when it is bought by my savings :)This is the most guarded asset of mine or rather the only.

Sounds odd that we all have same possessiveness though the degree may be nil to the extreme.Anyways,a little gesture moved me.When I came to know a girl who was upset just for losing her calculator.This was stolen by someone from car while she was attending tuition.Now she is extra careful about her things like holding mobile very tightly and suspecting all strangers.

I understood that whatever one is possessive about,is the thing he/she loses.I used to so much protective of things that even if I don't use them,I wouldn't let it go.

But when one day,there was a little dispute with my sister,on taking the exclusive dress.I was carried away when she gave up that dress for me.But then I convinced her that she should take it anyways.From this day,I relished the Joy of Giving.Although this was just a little gesture but it really changed my thoughts.

Even in case of relationships,I have withdrawn this possessiveness.I don't fear losing even my best friend or some one special.That don't mean I don't care for them.It means that if after some efforts,I am unable to match the expectations or the other person don't like me;I would rather take a move out.I know its easy to write and say but actually implementing is really tough.But I would do the same if any one has issues with me.I really don't like faking up or unnecessarily holding something what's not mine.

Serious thoughts..Isn't?By the way,do you have issues with me?Let me know.
Lessons learnt-
1)forget and forgive.
2)Leave expectations.just chuck them.
3)Stop faking.

My Te@Rs

The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
Its the worst look I wear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the future,I fear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It means some one closed to me is not near
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the pains of the past I bear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the true happiness of true love,I swear
The water from my eyes is not just my tear,
It shows the picture of someone so dear.

Ideal V-Day

Before you read the poem,I would like to wish you happy valentine week to all..This poem i wrote during my teenage years and I know its filmy type because its imaginative...Hope I am able to keep your love spirit high:)

Another sunny morning and its Valentine Day,

I have just got an invitation in my way.

Its an invite for date from anonymous guy

I kept wondering who sent it and why

While driving to my college,I thought about it very much

That's who could be fooling me by inviting me for such heavenly affair that costs too much bucks.

On a signal stop,I took out my pocket mirror to check if I am looking good

Then came a motorist & showered flowers on my car and drove away so fast as he could

I thought its some well planned prank and joke

planned by my friends & folks.

All of a sudden I heard heavy loud noise & relished a helicopter is above me at a height

As I came out of my car,it rained flowers red and white.

After this someone screamed "Shruti!I love you"

I shivered & mumbled who are you.

Again I heard him say "please meet me in evening"

I thought to teach him a judo lesson in the meeting

Though I am romantic at heart but I don't like this publicity.

I would give him a punch & a lecture as I am witty.

Dumbfounded by this event,I reached my B school

And shared this with my buddies who called me lucky and cool

While readying for this hyped date I wore black top and floral skirt

& got ready to see who is he-genuine or just a rich spoil brat

On my way to the venue ,I kept wondering who is he.

Is he smart,intelligent and as I want my Mr.Right to be.

On reaching I was seated on one place & was requested to be seated on one place & wait

Impatiently i crossed my fingers & kept expecting my fate.

Then arrived a huge bouquet & my wait came to end.

And I was swept off my feet to see it was X(my best friend)

First he greeted me & then sat on his knees to propose me

I never imagined he loves me,as he been special friend to me.

Holding my hand while on his knees,he asked me "would you be mine"

Blushingly I said yes & he asked champagne or wine.

I was still overwhelmed that he is my Mr.Right

as he was looking stunning in suit of white

He asked me if he really like my Mr.Right

I smiled and whispered yes of course you are right..

Just Another day

Most of my day travel is done via Delhi metro.Sometimes I am in hurry,sometimes I have idle time with me,yet I prefer metro to any other mode of public transport while commuting locally.You would catch me with ears engulfed withe headphones and that too mostly with soft music.

Wait!!!before proceeding,let me ask you one thing ....Are you getting bored already??Did I said I write to please you or to woo you...Don't go by its looks,use your brain.lastly don't expect anything from me :)

If you have seen Delhi metro,you must be aware that it has doors on opposite sides as well out of which one opens at each station.I always try to stand near the door (anyone) and look out for scenery out.If the train is moving and I look in it backward direction,then I am reminded of memories..May be you can say that life is about moving ahead and nothing is permanent.Everything is temporary in life...We shouldn't carry any regret or failure for a longer period of time..Failure is when you didn't tried,so its better to fail and rise rather than letting it untried....

And if I am facing the direction where the metro is moving,then I think I am moving ahead.And life have some opportunities to shine upon..Always be happy and keep smiling.....

That's what i have to say in this post.....Take care

A day of Jan 2009

After two days of recovery ,I was back to college and then again to catch some sleep..Yeah thank you mam you have sweet voice that sounds as a lullaby..Was teaching us Water cycle and all those topics(blame it on syllabus,we have got Environmental Science

as a subject)

Am I boring you as well?Sorry you are reading at your risk.I amn't responsible for any inconvenience caused:p

Well I was waiting for the classes to be over and I leave for IMS GD/PI classes.My classmate backed out in the end minute.I felt bad but not really.After all,I got "Me Time".

I was also supposed to meet my friend post class..And he too cancelled the program(I know you would read this,but I won't mention your name here)

I bought some chocolates and mints for my company...Hmmm..When a chocolate melts in your mouth,a heavenly moment:)

I boarded the metro and seated myself..Firstly few moments I thought about my friends who left me alone.I talked to another friend to feel good.Thank you sweet friend....

Then I utilized MP3 facility of Express Music phone....I wasn't able to decide which kinda music shall I listen then..When i am unsure i play some songs randomly for a while and not the whole song..Let me show you some songs and the reaction to it-

a)Masakali(from Delhi 6) -being a new song,it caught my attention at present.I was bit trying to dance like Abhy follows Sonam's steps while she is dancing:sigh:

b)Yeh tumhari meri baatein-hmm..reminded me of my past when we used to talk a lot and it wouldn't end somehow..But....

c)Tinka Tinka-ahaan..I was like flying my arms and feel like I am a fairy..Of course I am 1.

d)Soldier-My man has to be strong enough to be my soldier..Need I explain anymore..Please don't tell me I need a bodyguard..I don't bodyguard:neutral:

e)Ni Nachle-a Punjabi track which makes me go foot tapping any time..Yeah I was tapping my boots(heels one not pencils heels though)

f)My heart is beating-Of course for someone special:)Am waiting

g)Mera Laung Gawacha-am Punjabi kudi if you not aware:p I was like tapping my nose a bit while listening this one...

h)Kaise mujhe(from Ghajini)-again reminded of the pain and I go numb to it..I thought of him and missed those moments..Then I spotted a cute guy in front of me and I forgot everything..Lols...Its not easy to de-learn something...

i)Kabhi Kabhi Aditi-this makes me feel special as if someone is trying to cheer me up and I smile up easily....

j)Desi girl-started foot tapping again....My boots are enough to kill anyone:p

k)Jag Soona Laage-yeah mere jag me tanhaayi hai ..but I am happy:p

l)Yehi Hota Pyaar-I wish you could understand my love for you but you can't...And I ain't any Akshaye Kumar to wait for too long for you..

I guess I didn't bored you with this stuff..At last I got out of metro and finished my chocolate bar...I never share that and luckily didn't had anyone to snatch that from me..Anyways that brownie caught my attention.. I got that warmed and added chocolate sauce..Another heavenly dessert ....I was sinfully happy....

I roamed in the markets near my class premise and then attended the class..It was really nice day ..I made some new friends and we had some fun moments while practising GDs..Never thought GDs are so much fun:p

Anyways that's all what I wanted to say about this day..Thanks to my idiot friends to cancel their programmes(smirk)..Thank You God .....

Thank you readers for reading this..